stressful week ahead!

scholarships scholarships scholarships!!!! well i recently won the scholarship tht i had an interview for last week! $500! yay! and this week i have 3 of them due so im just so stressed out! i hate it when im drownin of school work and scholarships... its a pain! and liek i said 3 of them are due this week! not to mention the stress of prom! aaaaahhhhhh! this week is stressful, but on the flip side, my baby sister may come home this friday! yay! plus my busy week is gonna end with a fun night dancing at prom! yay
--lexis

another obstacle

so my baby sister is back in the hospital. she developed an infection probably and will not be ableto eat for 5 days. this means my parents wont be home for a while. i miss them all. hope she gets better soon!!! other than tht im just trying to get through school and watch over my sister. omg prom is almost here!!!!! yee!!!
--lexis

a new lifestyle

o no! ive missed commenting on other blogs for the last two weeks...o no hopefully not the senioritous!!!!! ill try again this week to follow through.  well the baby came home yesterday, so the house is definately ddifferent but it's time to get used to it.  omg she is so adorable! like i love holdin her cuz well i know ima leave in a few months and wanna spend as much time with her! awwww!
--lexis

new sister!!

well my new baby sister was born yesterday.  her name is Briella- nataliah chloe fernandez, but ima call her chloe.  its really different i guess, then again she hasnt came home yet so i havent quite felt  the big impact.  here's one of my big questions. im the oldest, and my sister brandy is i guess the middle one now. so when i address the two as a pronoun, do i say my sister number one and two? hmmm maybe ill call my sister brandy, my sister, and chloe my baby sister. geez it's gonna b a while for me to get a hang of this.
--lexis

what to write?!

so im having a hard time tryin o decide wat to write for our final writing tht is currently taking place.  i find it hard to come up with something from no where---- i dont have tht talent to just sit and come up with something descent.  maybe so ideas would be good... an idea tht relates to my kind of writing.
--lexis

FACEBOOK!

SO I FINALLY GOT A FACEBOOK!!!! ya ya i know wat your thing...why so late? well thts not important anymore! man ive been introduced to an entirely different world!!! its fun! hopefully i dont become an addict though.... but we'll see! its fun tohugh! well back to facebook-ing!!!!!
--lexis

where's everyone at?!

geez it seems as if though no buddy blogs anymore, or doesnt even experiment to blog with other people.  sadly, i havent been blogged of since forever. =/ smeone! anyone! blog about anything!!!!!!!
--lexis

evidence of evil people

There truly is evidence that there are evil people in this world.  This woman, how she claimed to hurt us, my family just because of pure jealously.  She tried to destroy my mom and she did a fantastic job at it, and now im suffering, my sister is suffering and so is my dad... my entire family is suffering.  and now my family are fighting against her, her evilness, her want to hurt us.  But its not entirely her fault.  Stupidity plays a role, and she's not all to blame for.  I warned my dearest that he was not a good man, he was a family recker, but yet she believed that he was good. i threatened to leave her if she went with him, but that didnt slow her down did it? and now, she sees that he too is pure evil and yet feels symphathy for him. you know what i think? BULLSHIT!!!!! it is all fake just like the man that he is, no wait, he is no man, just a fake f@#$er that knows he does wrong and tries to hurt others.  i hate that man, i truly do. man if i saw him right now, wow i get chills as i imagine  myself hurting him ith all my might.  Ya he may be bigger than i am and older, but wow i shake when i think about how much i absolutely hate him.  The other woman, she can simply die. she is an absolute moronic loser who thrives off the pain of others.  I prey (and although my mom always taught me to not wish hate onto others) that one day she will truly suffer the consequence 7 times fold of what she caused to others. i prey that revenge and pain willfind her and open her eyes to see that she is a worthless piece of crap. I want to spit on her face and grap her by the hair as i bash her head into theground, and say "What now bytch, you mess with my family, my mom, my dad, and now you see what will happen to you." i would leave her by the side of the road in agony, o well she's an old slut, thats where she belongs right? Even now, although i know it is wrong to say such things, i feel no remorse. to the dearest woman, im sorry, but sadly u deserved whats happening now. yes its affecting us but you choose to be involved with the situation and now we all suffer because of your mistake.  ya i know, youre so close to me and i know wat he did was unfair, but if i you were not someone close and dear, id say "well you brought it upon urself, now you gotta find a solution." honestly, that is what i would say.  i warned you 2 years ago that he was bad news, but u failed to see my end of the stick and believed what you thought was right? well here are your consequence and i guess we'll all learn that there are evil people in the world.
--lexis

BABY ON BOARD...teenager departing soon

Well my parents are expecting another child in May. so tht means tht im having another little sister. ya its cute, i have just seen it as wierd. idk, my parents arent too old, they're only like 35, and well i dnt know if thts old.  my sister is 15 and im 17, so its gonna be a huge age gap. i feel like it wont be just me and my sister Brandy; there's gonna be another person.  then there's another idea. tht idea is tht i guesws i feel like im being replaced. this is my last yr home, so my parents decided to fill in the gap, but i dnt know if thts true.  once im gone, it'll still b 4 family members, just not me.  my room wont b mine anymore, it'll be changed to something else.  Well idk, its confusing for me, but then again i get excited to go baby shopping. any ideas?
--lexis 

VALENTINE'S DAY IS COMING AROUND THE CORNER!!!!

So of course, valentine's day is coming up!!!! woot woot! and for those of you who dont have a bf or gf, well we luv you anyways. anyhow, i just wanna know any ideas or plans you have for valentines day. and whether or not you have a bf or gf or not. and of course, ill tell you wat my bf and i did for our valentines day! =] enjoy!!!!!
--lexis

no strings attached???

srry bout last week's lame post. not to entertaining. ok here is an idea. think bout the movie that just resently came out No Strings Attached.  For those of you who have no clue wat its about, its pretty much this girl and guy r like best friends. the girl is a doctor, so having a relationship is really hard.  So to fulfill her sexual side, her and her best friend become sex partners or friends with benefits to fulfill what she does have.  What is you're opinion about tht scenario and honestly, think bout it as a real life situation, like if this is happening to your friend. wat would you think?
--lexis

first one down....of many

today i finally turned in my first scholasrship and it was so long and stressful. ok more like it was a long process actually. its the RMHC scholarship and first place winner get $100,000. ya i know that it national so its a small chance that i can get it, but o well, even the runner up prizes and and money is better than nothing. ooo my parents are watchin DEVIL so i think ima go watch it too. i love watching movie that are about inhuman entities...creepy huh? well ttyl!
--lexis
ps srry bout the small blog =/

im overwhelmed!!!!!!!

i definately gotta vent here this week. i guess im just exhausted of homework, especially ap biology hw.  so we started school on the 5th, and its the 18th. within the 9 school days we've been here, we've gone through 3 chapters! its like one day is one chapter and then we jump to the next chapter...like what the hell?! how are we supposed to learn? i hate the pdf's that we have to do, omg they r like 50 questions tht we have to do, and besides that, we have to do bookwork as well! o and we gotta randomly do these worksheats that are so LAME!!!!!! on top of tht, i got ap lit and ap calc... thankfully mr. mcCullough isnt as crazy as mr. white for giving homework. and calc comes easy to me, so its not bad at all. but bio is booooooring and its a whole lot!!!! so ya, i just feel so overwhelme and hardly have time to do stuff for college, something tht is way more important than all this rediculus homework! sigh* i feel better
--lexis

what to do...what to do!!!!

I was recently faced with a hard decision, and i guess you would call it a life-changing decision but ironic it was decided upon with simply two words.  but as usual, in order to tell the story you have to go to the beginning.  well here the part that ii tell you about my personal life.  As some of you know, i have a wonderful boyfriend that i have been with for over two years.  He's two years old than i am and for those of you who know him, you can most likely agree with me that he's the kind of guy of is a keeper; he's amazingly smart, has high dreams and goals, attractive and we have the greatest chemistry, and over-all a great person to be with.  honestly, i can see our relationship last a super long time, im talking alot of years.  I'm more than happy with him and i know he is extremely happy too.  He's currently going to UOP and studying in computer science and physics, ya nerdy... i know...lol.  To be honest, he's super intelligent that he had the ability to go to a UC, but secretively stayed local because of me, cute huh? We'll for most of us senior, we're heading to college really soon.  My dreams are to be accepted to UC Davis and attend there, but with all the budget cuts, acceptance is becoming harder and harder.  It has gotten to the point that i become very doubtful in getting in.  yes, my grades are skyhigh and currently #12 in our class, i have recieved tons of community service hours, and i've tried my hardest to keep my grades up, but my ACT and SAT scores are not quite the greatest, nor are they good in my definition because of the reading portion.  My subject tests are great though, purely because they are math and science.  I fear that i wont be accepted because of my SAT and ACT scores.  So came up with this plan and it seemed decent.  If i didnt get accepted to Davis and had to go to Merced, Long Beach, or Irvine, i'd instead go to a csu or community college to get my GEs done.  It seemed great, for one, my family is expecting another addition by another sister, so id be able to help. two, it'd be cheaper, and three id get to be with my boyfriend until he graduated and then i can transfer to Davis while he went to a graduate school in Sac area.  But here were the cons: one, i will admit, my ego would not be happy that i went to a csu or community college. two, id constantly question whether im doing this because i want to or am i just limiting myself by staying close. Three: id be at home, and i feel like i want to be independent and if i attended a UC, id have to eitherway. forth: my parents have always told me that education comes first, so by doing this im only slowing myself down. fifth and most importantly: i dont know whether id be happy with my decision if it was too late. i know there's other reasons that are against this idea but these are my main ones.  it was hard, i felt like i wanted to tell my mom this plan, yet i felt like disappointment was just waiting for me.  Was it love that is holding me back? answer: probably. then i keep reminding myself that if what my boyfriend and i have is true serious love, then im sure him and i can survive being far for two years.  ya, that my independent-strong-female thinking, but behind that i feel weak at the knees and the what if's begin to pop up. i hate the "what if" thoughts. Lucky, i was at the councelors office yesterday and i ran in to mr. eckerle and he told me that the deadline passed for csu.  Yep, those were the two words "deadline passed" that gave me sudden relief from this entire idea.  But now that im typing this, i realized that i just said i was "relieved" when he told me. Now im wondering, does that mean subconsciously i truly didnt like the plan? that i knew i wanted to go to a UC and settle for nothing less? i guess so huh? and as i come to the end, a friend's quote repeats in my head, "wind makes the fire grow." and ya, you my friend, you know who you are.
--lexis